Beyond “Walking on Water”: Megan Fate Marshman's Story

I ((music playing)) remember talking about Peter and the walking on water scene and ((music playing)) when he was walking on water you'd think that when he's walking on water that it would build ((music playing)) faith but what I knew is that he held out his hand saved me that's when he got stronger is actually in his weakness not in his walking the miracle so man that that resonated ((music playing)) so deeply and I remember sharing it and slowly watching my life just kind of sink and ((music playing)) then find everything I needed. >> Megan Fate Marshman felt like her life was sinking into ((music playing)) the depths of despair when her husband passed away unexpectedly.

But in ((music playing)) her darkest moments, she discovered that true strength comes from placing her trust and faith in Jesus Christ. Find out how Megan's ((music playing)) faith grew as she fixed her eyes on Jesus through life's toughest circumstances. That's the story you're going to hear on this ((music playing)) episode of GPS, God, People, Stories, an outreach for the Billy Graham Evangelistic Association.

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Death may strike you down today, tomorrow, next week, next month. We never know. The question today is this. Is there any hope? >> Billy Graham will share more about what that hope is. However, if you're seeking hope in your life right now, there is good news and we are here to help.

Visit our website, find peacewithgod.net. And when you're there, click on begin a relationship with Jesus. That'sind peacewithgod.net. And the fastest way to get there is the link in our show notes. >> GPS God >> people stories. >> Megan Fate Marshman ((music playing)) grew up in a Christian home in Long Beach, California.

It was at a camp in middle school where Megan was challenged to make her faith personal. A speaker asked, "Is what you have your parents' faith or is it yours?" And I realized in middle school, oh, it had quickly become my parents and I wanted it to be mine.

Or I thought I was almost a um grandchild. And I remember hearing a long time ago, there's no grandchildren in the family of God. There's children of God. >> That was an invitation for Megan to make her faith in Jesus Christ personal. [snorts] And her faith was strong through middle school and high school.

But once in college, Megan found herself in trouble. This was the first time I had ever joined my friends as they were stealing and so crazy because I remember being like that's bad and I kind of had grown up like this simple Christian kid who tried to do a lot of good and honestly didn't see a ton of my sin and then joined them and as they went from store to store I didn't do anything wrong.

I just was witnessing something. >> After stealing from three stores Megan's friends encouraged her to go to the back of one of them. Then there they threw some merchandise in her backpack and told her to walk out of the store. >> The alarm sounds and they ran and I stood there caught and couldn't get a hold of my parents. >> Megan was in a small holding cell when she finally was able to get in touch with her parents.

They came to pick her up and their reaction was not what you'd expect. >> Grace responded through my mom. threw her arms open wide and me saying, "I don't I don't deserve that." And my dad poignantly saying, "Oh, my girl, when did you think that you did?" And I said, "Oh, I think the whole time I think I uh it's almost like God saved me from hell, but it's my job by myself to be worthy of that gift."

What I realized in that moment in college was I had covered the shame with a lot of good obedience. And while that's great, now I'm not saying it's a bad thing. It's wonderful. The problem is only Jesus Christ could take away our shame. >> Even as Megan experienced God's love and grace in a whole new way, she still had to face the consequences for her actions. >> When I got caught, I was over 18, which was significant because suddenly I would have to stand before a judge and it wouldn't just be about juvenile.

It would be about me taking accountability for what I had done and having consequences because sin has consequences. And my parents knew my character. They had all these family friends write letters on my behalf to the court to say this is not who she is. >> Megan had no idea about the letters until she stood before the judge waiting to hear his decision.

She was already suspended from school and that meant being suspended from a few of the college basketball games in which she played. >> The judge looked at me. He goes, "I got a lot of letters." From who? The judge didn't know who wrote those letters, but all those letters did lead him to make an unusual decision. >> And he goes, "I'm going to do something I've never done before.

Your consequence, I want you to write a 10-page paper on decision-m and how you got to that decision. I want to understand it. I want you to do the background. I want you to understand. And then I want what I want you to do as your court sentence is to speak publicly at all the local high schools about that paper content.

I want students to learn from this. and I want you to be the one to influence them. So, how did this affect my life? It's actually how I knew that I could speak. I didn't know up to that point that in any way God had gifted me in this way until my consequence. >> In a redemption story only God could write, God used Megan's greatest failure to find one of her greatest strengths.

After Megan graduated from college in 2006, she received an offer to serve at the same Christian camp that changed her life in middle school. It was another opportunity for her to use the gift of public speaking that God was developing in her. >> I remember sharing the gospel for the first time my second summer up there in front of 1,000 high school students.

And I remember like camp director hands me the mic. He's like, "All right, here we go. Share the gospel." >> Megan stood up and presented the gospel message for 50 minutes asking people if they wanted to give their lives to Jesus Christ. >> But I wasn't clear and it just was a mess.

But everyone's excited. And I sat down and felt so discouraged cuz I felt like, man, I think I screwed it up. Cuz I'd watched this guy do it for years. I'd watched him do it as a student. And I just gave the most inspirational speech that wasn't clear, but man, it was motivational. >> Megan sat down next to the speaker she had heard for years.

She was so discouraged, but he had no idea. >> And he leans over. He goes, "Isn't that the best?" And I was like, "I think I messed up." and he goes, "Oh, let's walk through the essentials and you'll do it again next week." >> His reaction had a profound impact on Megan. >> Someone going, "I would expect perfect, but let's walk together.

Let's walk through the essentials of our faith." >> The camp leaders were so impressed they asked Megan to come back the following year, not as a counselor, but to lead a seminar. And at her very first seminar, she ran into a familiar face. I had gone to a Christian high school and there was one speaker that always came to speak in my high school and he was hilarious and yet like really intense with the truth and I loved him.

Everyone loved him. And the first seminar I ever gave, he was in the audience. And I'm like, "That guy's in the audience." And he walks up to me afterwards and he goes, "Hey, um, let's grab coffee." And I'm like, as Megan chatted with him, he asked her, "Do you feel like you have an ability to help lead high school girls to feel something?"

He goes, "You have a gift and that gift will either be all about you or it will be partnered with the Holy Spirit and it will be really significant. You've got it." >> Megan believed he was right. She still believes that truth as she speaks today. And the man who helped her realize her calling to vocational ministry was Francis Chan, a well-known pastor, author, and speaker.

It was after doing that seminar the speaking requests started coming for high school chapels and then those high schoolers became college students. They started doing college chapels and then they started working at churches and I worked at a publishing house worked for a Christian publishing house for a number of years writing curriculum and was discipled by another gal who taught me a philosophy of ministry that's not just relying on passion or talent but relying on the Holy Spirit putting the Bible at the center.

Through that opportunity and mentorship, Megan learned how to understand the Bible in its context. She also began working part-time for Rock Harbor, the church that housed the curriculum company. And around that time, God used the church life group to lead Megan to her future husband, Randy. >> And Randy attended with my sister, my parents, and some of my very closest friends.

I wasn't even in the group, but everyone was talking about this guy. And I showed up on the last week and the ongoing joke between him and I was always who asked who out first because I invited him to see my dad's play. My dad's an actor. It's a fun fact.

Most people probably wouldn't know. >> Megan and Randy got married about a year and a half later and they now have two little boys. >> While we got married on 1211 2010 12110, it took us so many years to live up to the union that we covenanted in 1211.

We were already one by union, but we still functioned early on as two single people trying to remember to ask each other before we made plans. And to [snorts] remember to change the toilet paper roll and to not leave laundry on the ground when you shower and all the things.

And by the 10ear mark, I felt like we had tasted that whole two becoming one. In that when he was excited, I was like excited. If he was sad, I couldn't not be sad. If he was grieving, I was grieving. If he was hopeful, I was hopeful. Like, we really had.

And we learned what to do with our differences to bring them together. >> But in the best season of their marriage, Megan's whole life flipped upside down. In 2021, Randy died from a sudden heart attack in the middle of the night. >> I was with him and it was hell and it was trauma and it was pain and it was crazy and it was grief and it was shock and it was everything.

And I'm presently in the room that it happened. life flipped. And I think whether you can relate to that on the loss of somebody or you can relate to that just on those certain days you learn certain information. Here's my encouragement. Whether even me bringing this up is rising something in you.

I even think about that moment like he saw the light for the first time. His faith became sight. And when you talk about trauma or you experience trauma or you get a random phone call or your body sinks, I just don't want to miss this moment even of sharing about his death.

I think a lot of people have different reactions when you bring up stuff like this. The week before Randy passed away, he and Megan had a conversation about Philippians 1:21, which says, "To live is Christ and to die is gain." And I was saying to Randy, I said, I get the die is gain part.

To live is Christ part. O, so it means basically this to live is to become more like Christ and to know Christ, to be Christ in Christ and have him in you. And that's life, to die is gain. And I believe Randy experienced the game and everything I'm doing now is just how I'm living is Christ.

I want to understand that. But I want also for people with whatever is rising up in them, whether it's grief within yourself or just a moment, a phone call that changed your whole life or a past trauma that's coming up or grief about a job loss or an expectation that your life is not as you feel like it should be by now. or you have your being discipled by that little board game of life that tells you the stop signs and the order in which you should get the house and all the things.

I would just say this. Whatever is rising in you, don't dim that light. Bring it to him. Share it with others. It's one of the greatest gifts is the light that exposes. If it brings up anxiety in you, open it to him. Don't try to pretend it's not there or push it away with thinking that faith just trumps it or kicks it.

No, no, no, no, no. Faith opens it in honesty. That's something God has taught Megan since Ry's passing. But in the first few months after his death, she grieved heavily over the loss of his life and their marriage. Trying to process it all, she asked her friend a deep question. >> I said, "I get the two become one.

Like, I get it cuz I didn't experience it." And then I did. And in grief, I asked her like, "So, like, what happens when one loses one?" Like the math of that, how does that work? It took 6 months for Megan's friend to give her an answer. >> She's like, "Megan, I think I have a idea on your math problem and I knew exactly what she was talking about."

She said, "You know, I've watched the past 6 months and it seems like half of you is in heaven and it was like this because there's this weird superpower that you'd give back in an instant if you could. But if I can't change the past, I'm going to walk forward and find the superpowers in it.

And one of them would be this that in grief and loss specifically with someone in heaven. And for me, half of me feeling at times like I'm in heaven, it's you stop caring about the things that don't matter and you start caring even more the things that do.

So podcasts to talk about who God is and how to genuinely walk with him and follow him. Yes. Worry about things I can't control. Living and complaint. Those are less tempting. I know what I am tempted by. And don't worry, that's part all that stuff's part of my confession. >> Megan centering her world and what's most important for eternity.

Includes being a loving mom for her two boys. >> It's hard single parenting. If you know anyone, it is no joke. There's no breaks. It's very hard. And it's my greatest ministry. And I love these two little boys with everything. And I would disappoint anyone if it meant taking care of them in the ways that they deserve cuz they got dealt pretty tough cards and they're walking in faith.

So the aftermath is my my word today would be walking by faith just one day at a time because I think biblically that's what he's asked me to do. And it doesn't mean it's not hard. >> Walking by faith one day at a time. That is how Megan has been able to start speaking again after taking time off to mourn Randy. >> I knew that I wouldn't stop like telling people the truth that I found, but I needed space to find it.

Need space for my boys to find it. And then one of the first sermons I gave, I remember talking about Peter and the walking on water scene. And one aspect I caught reading it in that unique season that surprised me was that when he was walking on water, you'd think that when he's walking on water that it would build faith cuz he's walking on water.

You'd think that he'd start almost like with a little faith like is the water going to support me? And then as it does then it would then he'd like start stepping on it with confidence. It's like it feels like it goes kind of backwards. Like he starts then he sinks.

That was surprising to me where I'm like until I realized that he actually did get to strength because he was walking on the water. That's kind of what I felt like I had been doing. I was like kind of just starting to sink. And it wasn't about a lack of faith for me.

For me, I don't know Peter. I don't know where he was at in that moment. But what I knew is that he held out his hand, saved me, and man, my mind can't help but go full circle to our entire conversation, which is that's when I'm my strongest.

So, he did get to his strength. When he reached out his hand, that's when he got stronger is actually in his weakness, not in his walking the miracle. So, man, that that resonated so deeply and I remember sharing it and slowly watching my life just kind of sink and then find everything I needed.

Not because I was doing all the things, but because I knew where to look. >> Today, Megan continues to speak about God's truth as she shepherds women at her local church. She even still speaks at the Christian camp where she began her personal relationship with Christ as a middle schooler.

And in 2024, her book was published. It's titled Relaxed. >> I wrote a book in the aftermath of losing Randy. And I didn't know this, but he's in every chapter. Didn't even plan on it. It just happened that way cuz it's what I was thinking through as I was writing.

And I also knew I wanted to write, not once I figured it out, but I wanted to write in the middle cuz I think that's where I meet people. And um when I turned it in, my pastor Brent Eldridge looked at me. He walked into my office. He goes, "Megan, you just turned in a book called Relaxed.

Do you feel more relaxed?" [clears throat] And I sat back and I was like, "Do I?" No. And he laughed and I laughed and he's like, "What do you mean? You wrote a book called Relax. People want to relax. What are you talking about? You don't know." And I said, "I ((music playing)) just know where to go when I'm not and I know who I'm in when I am.

That's it." ((music playing)) So, praise God the whole time. He's used all things by his grace. If you want to accept God's grace and find strength ((music playing)) in him for every circumstance, start your faith journey right now. Visit us at ((music playing)) find peacewithgod.net. When you're there, click on begin a relationship with Jesus.

That's atind peacewithgod.net. You can also find this link in our show notes. In just a minute, you'll hear Megan share more about one of the most impactful lessons she learned while in ministry training. >> You're listening to GPS, God, People, Stories, a podcast production of the Billy Graham Evangelistic Association.

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The greatest news that mortal ear has ever heard was the news that Jesus Christ had risen from the dead as he had promised. ((music playing)) Ladies and gentlemen, this is the greatest truth of the centuries. This is the greatest truth that your ears can ever hear. That Jesus Christ died, but he rose again.

That you too will die, but you can rise again into newness of life. It is the Christ of Christianity that has risen from the dead. And because he lives, we that know him shall live also. In the resurrection, Jesus Christ conquered sin, death, and the grave, and is alive forever more.

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Our guest in this episode of GPS is Megan Fate Marshman, who shares the hope of Jesus Christ with an energetic joy and sincerity. Before we wrap up, she has one more piece of wisdom to share. >> I would say the story of my life is receiving the love of God.

I just um got my doctorate in ministry. And the reason I bring that up is not to say go me. It's to say, I found myself alongside all these fellow classmates who just want to help people know the love of God. And we're sitting there and it's a climax moment in a lecture where our professor is like, "Do you really want to know how we change?

Do you really want to know how to partner with the Holy Spirit in the lives of other people?" And all of us are like, "Yes." It's this build, like the class was building, building, building. We have our notes out. Everyone's ready for the moment. What's the secret? And here's what it was.

He really loves you knowing everything that because of the identity he gifts you in being in his son none of it when you stand face to face none of the sin will keep you away from him and the shame that gets exposed doesn't have to be ignored in this life.

It can be opened because all of our best attempts to cover it. Be it secrets, be it good behavior, be it positivity, be it compartmentalization. Anything we do to cover that shame, it can be laid bare before the one to whom we must give an account. Not just on that day that we stand before him, but every single day of our lives.

We can look at it and go, "Oh, I'm not as I should be, and you know me, and you love me, and you give me a new identity, and that identity is in Christ, which makes me holy, blameless." And when he does, you find all those fears and all those reasons you have tried to cover it on your own are actually satisfied in him.

You don't belong because people don't know your sin. You belong because you're in Christ. You're not accepted because you've been good. You are accepted because his goodness is in you. And it changes you from the inside out. >> We're thankful to Megan Fate Marshman for joining us on this episode.

Megan is a follower of Christ and a mom who stewards her gifts as a Bible teacher and women's speaker. She also writes books and Bible studies. That means she is very busy and we know you are too. And that's all the more reason that we want to thank you for listening.

We are grateful for you. Make sure you always have the latest episodes by hitting the subscribe button on your favorite podcast app or YouTube. In the middle of life, GPS is here for you in the middle of the week, every other Wednesday. I'm Jim Kirkland and this is ((music playing)) GPS, God, People, Stories.

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